I found him here after too many mental questions and not enough answers. That was the first one. The second one (the only one I was foolish enough to send money to) I posted here for I found nothing about him but knew he was dummer than a load of rocks. I wasn't dumb, I was harrassed, lonely, vulnerable, and wanted the first one, whom I knew I didn't have. Perhaps this doesn't make sense, but it's the only way I know to explain it.
I'm recovering from major surgery now, much slower than anticipated, and it was brought on by stress, anxiety and depression. I was not/am not suicidal, but I didn't give a damn one way or the other. Thank God I got through that stage and I'm loving each day God gives me.
I'm 76 now and maybe I should just "forget it" but I still hope to find a friend and companion if God lets it happen. If not, I like myslf enough to "keep on trucking."
Hugs and thanks to all of you----I come here every day.