Translating this part felt really awkward. Why did I panic this much and why did I let myself get involved so much in this crap? But judge for yourself
Jul 03, 2013
Its July now and it has just 19 degrees! Now that’s some kind of kinky summer, no, some kind of kinky year! Yesterday it was nice and warm and I have been sitting on my terrace, but today's it cold again.
Well, but it should get better the next few days and also warmer. At least in the last week of my holiday’s I should have good weather. But I haven’t gone anywhere again. Well, I don’t have the money for it now anyway.
My contact with Nathaniel is now in the last phase. Yesterday, I told him that I had bought perfume, which he could also sell in Ghana. But of course I hadn't. He wanted to see the bottles on cam. Lucky that I had told him the day before that I don’t use any perfume. But I had 2 bottles stored, one from Hugo Boss and another one. Both bottles were still full and I showed him these. I hope he didn’t get suspicious because I did not have them in a box. I sent Ms. H. an email, telling her that I want to send the UPS package on Friday. I will tell this Nathaniel and then he will not be able to reach me for the weekend. I will tell him that I am gone for a couple of days and he should give me a call when he received the parcel. I doubt that he will call me. Oh, how interesting it would be to be there in Ghana when he gets his parcel, just to see his stupid face! But once this is over, I have to block him everywhere, on Skype, all phone numbers that I have of him (3 in the meantime), and also his email. It would be interesting to know what’s coming after this. I bet he will try again, maybe also using “the police”, who want to arrest me for smuggling goods to Ghana. This time I will not panic, he can kiss my a.. ! I'll respond to nothing.
Yesterday I didn’t chat very long with Nathaniel. I didn’t feel well and I also had a headache. And today I have not been online yet. Today, he is invisible as Nathaniel M. on Yahoo. Phillip M. is offline. This evening I have my dance class anyway, so I will not be at home and can’t chat with him. I'm not available for him today, only tomorrow. And tomorrow I can tell him that I will send the package on Friday. I hope nothing goes wrong and also I hope Ms. H. has her colleagues ready in Ghana. The interview with me should be by the end of next week at the earliest. The Lady of the magazine will get back to me. She has to clarify which article will be published. They have probably more than just one person with a scammer story. Well, let’s wait and see if they will choose my story. Not many people have a story like I have. But I could have easily done without such a story
Another scammer has contacted me on Skype. He called himself Mike W. There is indeed a man with this name, but only 40 years old and not 48 as the scammer says and coming from Daytona Beach, FL and not Jacksonville, FL. and of course married. I wonder, who this is and whether this is the same scammer who has contacted me as Joseph T. G. But I don't think so. Joseph T. G. didn’t speak English very well, this one does. He even uses special American expression’s, you could even think this is the real Mike W., except that he reveals himself with his “am” instead of "I am". But he did his homework
. It can’t be Nathaniel, whose English is far worse. I am considering if I should confront this Mike W. that I know who he is. The next time he comes online I have to check his IP.
July 04, 2013
Well, the Ghanaian colleague of Ms. H. is ready and can deliver the "package" on Tuesday. I don't know what will happen exactly. They have a hidden camera and the police will be there as well. I feel almost sorry for Nathaniel because the last days he told me the whole time how much he loves me. But he's still a scammer. I should not forget this. He is invisible the whole time with the email account of Phillip M. And he wants money from me again, so he could start working. Just what kind of job would that be? He didn’t make it until now. I only feel sorry for his son. The poor child! Oh, now he is online. I must ask him again about the address and the phone number.
He just asks how I feel tonight. Actually not fine. I have listened once again to all my favorite songs which are connected with Nathaniel, and of course with Travis. And I am feeling very sad again.
Sometimes I wonder whether I want to have a man in my life again, if I would not be better without one. But then my desire is coming back, I want to have someone by my side who loves me. I just don't know how and where to find him? Why is it so difficult? Why did I have to fall in love with Travis, a man of whom I know nothing, if he is still alive, if he is married, just nothing at all? And if he is alive, where is he? Everything is coming back when I listen to the songs. And next week will be a hard time for me when the people from the television will be coming to my house. I don’t know how I will react, if I am in the same mood as today. I will probably burst into tears when I tell my story.
Oh god, everything goes haywire. At least my job is ok, even though my salary is not and I am not as satisfied as I would like to be. I can’t use my languages, but I'd prefer nothing more than that.
Let's wait and see how things will be going in Ghana next Tuesday. I have to block Nathaniel afterwards. He will be mad at me anyway, because I have betrayed him. I probably can wait to receive more threatening emails or phone calls. Maybe also Nathaniel will try and call me. If he is not getting through with his 3 numbers, he will probably call from a “Private Number”. I don't think that Nathaniel will learn his lesson. But if someone with code 233 calls, I will not take the call and block the number immediately. If I think about it: Nathaniel is really a criminal, he just wants to make money by any means. And it seems to be worth it for him. He has a laptop, car keys are lying on the table, although he told me he has no driver's license, but that would be the car of his friend. He has an excuse for everything and if he hasn’t, he just remains silent. He did this as Phillip M. par excellence. I would be so embarrassed telling a complete stranger that I have no money, making up a story and then asking him/her to send me money. I was already so embarrassed by my story last year. I am so glad this is over and that it went quite well. But the people in Ghana are some kind of weird people, at least those who are “earning” their money with the scamming business.
My diary has already 120 pages now. I will continue writing until this story is over. I would like to write until I have solved the mystery about Travis. I only want to know his name and if he is alive. But what if he is indeed dead? At the moment I still have hope that he’s alive.
When everything is completed, I want to print it as a book. And then I will start a new diary.
Yesterday I asked Nathaniel what made him decide to stop with the scamming business.
He said then:
“well... i told you i went into that because of my only son Kweku, and later i realised that this very bad
[7/3/2013 11:56:16 PM] Nathaniel Ackaah M.: and i what in love with you so ask myself, why do you love the woman and still lying to her? So said no. to myself and said I'll tell you the truth.” * These are the sammers own words. I didn't change anything.
And he expects me to believe that? When I think about it, he must be a long time in this business; he always had an answer, or didn’t answer at all or just gave vague answers.
But I had to laugh when Nathaniel told me yesterday that he would go visit a friend. This friends name was Daniel and this was the same one that called me in February as the Ghana police and to whom I said "F.ck You". I remember that day very well. I was so sick that day, but then I was so proud of myself when I said that to him. Well, that is his problem, not mine. Probably himself a scammer.
July 05, 2013
Nathaniel thinks that I have sent the parcel today. I called Nathaniel that I am on my way home. He wants to wait online for me. I will wait another 5 minutes before I come online, but I will be online only a short time. He should not have any time to ask me for the tracking number. I logged in now, but he was not online and did not come. I have left him a message, telling him that I went to bed because I have to get up early the next morning as I would be away for the weekend. I hope he buys it. I've written also that he can reach me on the phone. But that’s fine with me, so he had no opportunity to ask me for the UPS tracking number.
My Ambassador M. from Bolzano is now online. I have not contacted him and neither did he contact me. I think I will send him a message. It's just difficult right now for me to travel to Bolzano, next week I don't have any time for that. I want to stay at home on Tuesday, want to know how things will go in Ghana. And then the television wants to come, too. I will just stay here, stay in the sun on my terrace and not come online. I will not speak to anyone. I don’t want Nathaniel to get suspicious. I can hardly wait until Tuesday.
July 07, 2013
Yesterday I went see my girlfriend G.; we had a nice afternoon together. We went shopping. I have bought a skirt, but already one for the winter. It was only €25. In the evening when I came home, I called Nathaniel and he asked me if I would be at home. I said yes. He would come online, he said. I told him a little bit, what I had done this day and that I did not leave for the weekend. He hadn’t read the message yet. But he was pleased that I was here chatting with him. After a while he asked, if I had the tracking number.
In the meantime I am also pretty good in finding excuses and not answering directly. I told him that I would probably have it somewhere, but that I have been pretty nervous at UPS because they had asked me a lot of questions. Nathaniel wanted to know what they had asked me. I told him that they wanted to know the content of the parcel and they would have asked why I spend so much money for this parcel. The package would have cost me €160. Nathaniel was shocked about the price, didn’t think this would be so expensive. He thanked me a hundred times and forgot to ask me again about the tracking number. Then, suddenly he said something strange:"I don't know what to say." I asked him what he meant. He simply said: "I love you" and that I would be his everything and he would not allow anyone to take me away from him. I had a very strange feeling. I don't know what is going on with me. I don't think that he loves me. It can’t be. He is a scammer. He says that a hundred times every day and who knows to how many women he said that already.
But I am not sure that the contact with him will be over after Tuesday. If only I could fly myself to Ghana so I could see his face. What if he will contact me again after Tuesday? I'm going to block him; I just have to do this. But what if he calls me from a private number? But on Tuesday he must realize that no money is coming from me; on the contrary, he will realize that he cannot trust me anymore. And still I don’t know if someday I will in fact travel to Ghana. By surprise and then search for him. But if everything is over after Tuesday, hopefully this will fade away. I am of course curious to see him on the video. I hope that I will get a copy. I feel so sick when I think of Tuesday.
But I have to admit it, I have feelings for Nathaniel. Otherwise I cannot explain my strange behavior. His constant declarations of love, his marriage proposal, that nobody's taking me away from him and all the other things...., then he doesn't look that bad either. He could be real nice. Then, I have called him "Honey" the last days, sent him kisses. Well, well. But I have to wait for Tuesday; I will not warn him. Maybe everything will be settled by itself. But anyway, it's a strange feeling. There is somebody who constantly tells you, how much he loves you and it’s difficult not to fall for this. Especially that I have put so much feelings in all of this, makes everything so difficult.
Today I met a guy named Dj. at the Tollwood-Festival. He is a black guy from Benin, a neighbor country of Ghana, is married to a German, but is separated from her, and has 3 children with her (the smallest is 4 years old). He looked rather strange. He had African clothes on and a strange hat, under which his hair was hidden. He told me he had long hair to the waist. We talked a while quite nice in French, but somehow I was ashamed to be seen with him with his strange outfit and his funny hat. Is Nathaniel also running around like this? I don’t think so. On the photos that I have, he is dressed in normal clothes. But Nathaniel seems to be Catholic, this Dj. is Muslim. But somehow, I am followed by Africa at the moment, especially the West Coast and Ghana. There are several African booths at the Tollwood-Festival, including one with clothes, called AKWABA. And AKWABA means welcome. I know that in the meantime very well, I will never forget it.
I hope that this week the people from the television will come; hopefully on Thursday. Then the UPS-thing in Ghana will be over already. Oh everything feels strange and weird at the moment, including myself. I should not tell anybody how I feel, or they would all think that I had gone completely insane.
Today I will not get online. If Nathaniel should ask, I would tell him that I have stayed at my friend's house because it was too late to go home. I don't dare to go online, not on Skype, neither with my Hotmail-account. Even when I appear offline, I have been contacted by Nathaniel so many times. I don't know if he can see it or if he just tries. But if I can see when he is online or invisible, he can maybe see this just as well. And I will not go to romancescam either. I better keep a low profile. If I should login, I will hide my online status. He should not get suspicious. Maybe I will just watch TV or play a computer game.
I have just watched a little video: "What dogs teach us". For example they heal, they share, they are loyal and the way they say goodbye. In this video, a German shepherd said goodbye to his master (an American soldier) at his funeral. It was real strange to see the dog grieving, knowing very well that his master will never come back. This video has touched me, made me sad, and reminded me suddenly of Travis, that he could also be dead. And I realized, I also have to say "Goodbye", I did it already, but I am constantly reminded due to my contact with Nathaniel and everything stays alive. It is not good if I develop feelings for Nathaniel, not good at all. But on Tuesday hopefully everything will be over after the delivery of the parcel. I'm not very happy about this at the moment, but I have to go through this. I have enough evidence that he is still scamming other people, he also tried to scam me, thinks he gets 800€ from me. And who knows what would come next. Frumpy is right, block all contact and incoming messages from your scammer. Otherwise I will never be free. Even, if Nathaniel would love me, this would not make any sense at all. He is 23 years younger than me, he could be my son. But he is a criminal, he can offer me nothing. I would have problems with my son, with my friends, who would not understand me. And I am not made for a life in Ghana and I don’t want to live there. And I don't want that Nathaniel is coming to Germany, even though he says he will never leave my side. Well, I hope he will not show up here all of a sudden. What would I do if he would come? Oh no, better not. I have just checked again; he is invisible as Phillip M. He is still using Travis pictures. I don’t need to have any compassion or feelings for Nathaniel. He is and remains a scammer. Everything is a lie! Nothing is true, what he says! And I'm staying offline. If he misses me or wants to hear my voice, he can just call. But as he didn’t call me yet, it seems that he is busy and does not miss me.
July 09, 2013
UPS will come tomorrow. The police will be there as well and the journalist got even a UPS uniform. Oh how I would like to be there tomorrow! I called Nathaniel and asked him how he was doing. He said he would miss me and would love me so, and was pleased that I had called him. The electricity is not working at the moment, that's why he can’t come online. But I told him that I am not at home, that I went swimming. He should have no chance to ask me for the tracking number. Again tonight and then hopefully tomorrow everything will be over. Maybe I will take my bike and go swimming anyway tomorrow. Ms. H. can leave me a message via WhatsApp. But it's a strange feeling, despite everything. Nathaniel will get a shock tomorrow. But I wonder what the police will do with him? Arrest him? At the time I posted everything on romancescam, I didn’t think it would end this way. But I have the feeling that this is not over yet. Travis is not solved yet and I fear that it will still continue with Nathaniel. I don't think that the police in Ghana will try to arrest him. I have no real trust in the Ghanaian police.
I am reading volume no. 2 of Fifty Shades of Grey in English. The book is much better in English. But Ana is using so many expressions, like “my heart skips a beat”. Nathaniel told me this as Phillip M. a hundred times also. I am feeling sad reading this and when Christian asked her to marry him, I had tears in my eyes.
Last night I met with Fr, an Italian guy. He was nice, but not really my type. Asked me if I would come to his place, which I denied. He drove me to the train station and kissed me. I kissed him also, but I had no feelings whatsoever. Fr. asked me, if I'm looking for my true love. I said yes and at that moment I realized that I am in fact looking for it and I am convinced to find it one day! Fr. said he no longer believes in love. I felt sorry for him, because I do believe in love. I know that I have these feelings and I am also willing to give it to someone. No matter how old I am. You're never too old for love!
July 10, 2013
Today is the day! I woke up shortly after 7 a.m. and could not go back to sleep again. Now it is 8:40 and I am edgy. I am waiting for Ms. H. to call me. Nathaniel didn’t come online yesterday evening but was invisible as Phillip M. Now, Nathaniel is invisible. I don't dare to go online on Skype. I don't know if Nathaniel was contacted already by "UPS". And as I don’t have any tracking number, I better be careful. I am now online on Skype, but my nerves are all on edge. Nathaniel is not calling and neither does Ms. H. Phillip M. is now invisible and Nathaniel is now offline. And now both are offline (11:57 a.m.)! I just sent an email to Ms. H., whether she heard anything from Ghana. This waiting bothers me.
For Christ's sake, he is now invisible again, both Nathaniel and Phillip M. but he is not online on Skype. What's happening there? Ms. H. still has not replied (12:30 p.m.). Should I call Nathaniel? I did now. He hasn’t been called yet and of course wanted to have the tracking number. I told him that I would check what’s going on and call him back. If just Ms. H. would contact me! I don't know if I could be a journalist. To make research is interesting, but the rest? I would get cold feet (literally
) at the end. Maybe I occupy myself with something else as to wait constantly. Otherwise I will only make mistakes. Ms. H. will contact me sooner or later.
I went through "scammers4real" on romancescam. These criminal a..holes! And I checked again the post with Nathaniel’s picture. He's not better. The phone number that was mentioned in this post makes me sick. I know this number by heart. This idiot! I have no pity anymore with Nathaniel!
Yesterday I was also looking if I could find more photos of Travis. This is real strange. Now, every time I look, I find something. I found a new photo on badoo (but the picture is taken from afar and it’s hard to detect whether this is really him). I find pictures on Anti-Scam-sites, but of course nothing about the real Travis and not his name
. But then, all these pictures are circulating in the net only since the last 4 months. I couldn’t find any pictures of Travis before February this year.
Now Nathaniel is again offline with his two accounts. Oh dear! Maybe they have contacted him and he's going to meet UPS. I will not call him anymore. I have blocked him on my email account. I must block him also on my cellphone and then of course on Skype. But only when everything is over. Ms. H. did not call me yet. It would be nice if I would at least get a short answer. Normally I always get a lot of emails, but not today. But maybe she is in a meeting or something. No, this can’t be. She is still in maternity leave. If she works, it’s only from home.
This Mike W., who has contacted me via Skype, is of course also from Accra. I sent him an E-mail with readnotify. He opened this E-mail already yesterday afternoon, but last night while we were chatting he pretended to have seen it only a minute ago. He gave me a call because I wanted to hear his voice. It is definitely not a familiar voice and not Nathaniel either. His English is quite good, both spoken and written, but he does make grammatical errors, puts sentences in wrong order, and is misspelling some words. I am thinking if I should ask him the next time about the weather in Accra
I don’t care if he will not reveal his true identity. I have every information I need and can post him on romancescam. And if he is giving me his real picture I could post this as well.
July 11, 2013
It’s late and I'm really tired, but I want to write down what happened yesterday (at least that I know) with Nathaniel.
I had called Ms. H. on the phone, asking her to tell me what was going on. But only the machine was answering. I asked her to give me an urgent recall. At 4:30 p.m. I still had no answer. I had just an email ready and wanted to send it to her when I received a phone call from a "private number". It was Nathaniel, completely hysterical. He told me the UPS had called him and he went to the meeting place. The UPS courier would have detained him and asked him to open the package, but Nathaniel didn’t want to do that because the parcel was already open. And the police was also there and wanted to arrest him. He broke away and fled "because of the sake for his son". He does not understand what happened and he would not be in Accra any longer. I pretended not to know anything and asked him repeatedly just to tell me what was going on, that I would not understand. He asked me if I could check with UPS and then give him a call. Shortly after I ended the phone call, I received a phone call from Ms. H. I told her what I had just learnt from Nathaniel. She didn’t know exactly what had happened; only that the Ghanaian police wanted to speak to me, but she promised to notify me when she would know more.
Last night, Nathaniel called me again, wanted to know whether I was in Ghana, which I denied of course. I "promised” him to go to UPS and ask them, what was going on. He said this UPS courier wanted to give him an unstamped parcel and urged him to open it before him. Nathaniel didn’t want to do this because the parcel was already open and he feared there would be drugs or something else inside this parcel. I don't know how he could escape.
This morning, I received a forwarded mail from Ms. H. The Ghanaian journalist wrote that they had filmed everything and that this would be a whole network of criminals who were involved in this scam. Ms. H. has also been in contact with a scammer, who then acted as an "assistant", who sent an accomplice to pick up the package and the police arrested him. This accomplice would now help the police to arrest the others. So far so good.
This afternoon Nathaniel called me again from a "Private number". I told him that I would be devastated, because he had lied to me again and that UPS had asked me a lot. He wanted to know what they had asked me. I meant I could not tell him much; I would have to wait for some answers from Ghana. But I told him that he would be a criminal scammer and would leave me devastated again. He said that he had not lied to me, that he would love me, that he did the first scam only because of his son. He would never lie to me again. He would have promised me that. I asked him where he would be now and how he got out of the city. He told me he would be somewhere in the North. If I have understood it correctly, he took a bus to get out of town. I asked him if he had used a car because of the car keys on his table. Of course, this would be the car keys of his friend, where he would live. He said he had spent the night out in the open and had not eaten yet and he didn't know what would be with his son. And then he started crying. He was really sobbing. I should help him, should say that I know him and I had forgiven him, that he was not a criminal. I am worn out myself now; I don’t know how to react. I don't know what to believe anymore. He would call me again tomorrow and I should help him. I just kept saying: ' Please don't cry. I will try my best to help you." Damn it, why only did he escape? And I myself will start crying soon!
After that I called Ms. H. We had a longer chat on the phone. She said that I would have done everything very well and Nathaniel would probably try to play on my heart strings now. I should no longer talk to him. On Friday, she will get more information from Ghana and she will send me the movie (at least a part of it). I told her, that I would not feel well now. First Travis and my broken heart and now Nathaniel. A ride on a roller coaster is nothing to how I feel right now. I said that I would like to speak to the Ghanaian police and they should call me. They wanted to have my number anyway.
I looked on romancescam a few times. Each time Phillip M. and/or NAT have been invisible. Both are now invisible (0:45 a.m.). I don't understand it now. With Phillip M. it is still plausible. Some of these scumbags are probably still using this account. Unfortunately, the police didn’t arrest all of them (if they will ever?). But Nathaniel? What's going on with him? Where is he? Why is he invisible? In other words, he's hiding somewhere, has access to a computer and is exchanging E-mails with his accomplices? Sh.t, if this is so, I have to watch what I say to him. If it's not him who is online, who is it then? No, that can't be. Who else should be online/invisible with his account? It must be him!
So, what do I tell him when he calls tomorrow? Apart from that, how long will the battery of his cellphone last?
Something is really wrong. I have to urge him to go back to Accra, he should do that anyway because of his son. Actually, I am the main person in this whole drama. Sigh, such a sh.t! What do I do if he really goes back to Accra? He can’t hide forever and also what will he do, if he has another malaria attack?
But on the other hand, if I think about it, he told me he is living for over a year with a friend (if this is true), didn’t make it in this time to get a job, but his friend has an apartment and a car. What does he do that Nathaniel does not? Well, I think he is also in the scamming-business. Everything is a lie! From what does Nathaniel live, if it’s true that he scammed only once (me), only to save his son and to buy himself some land with goats and sheep? He received my 6.000 € already in November last year. How does he pay his food now, his clothes, stuff for his son, his cell phone? He does not get this for free and he definitely doesn’t look malnourished. And he had always money to go to the Internet Cafe and also money to buy a laptop. And telling me all the time he has no money! Oh man, how will I get out of this? Now, I don't know again how everything will turn out. And all these phone calls to Ghana? This will cost me a fortune! Everything goes haywire, I was so happy that I was slowly feeling better and then Nathaniel is coming back and stupid me is involved again in this stupid sh.t. But on the other hand, these criminal activities must go public; the people have to know about this. If I can help to put these scammers out of business I have reached my goal, at least in Germany it would be already a great success. I have to go through this if I want to help other people, want to warn others.
Tomorrow I will see my friend R. She is the only one who knows the truth and I want to talk to her, when we're together. Now, I better go to bed and I hope I can find some sleep.
July 13, 2013
I am in a very bad condition today, just as Nathaniel, who has written me that he would be in a poor condition. Crap, I have no time to continue writing. I have to make the cheese cake for our summer festival and then I have to go. But I will write more tonight. I am completely worn out.
Everything goes haywire. I'm really tired, but afraid to go to bed because I'm afraid not to be able to fall asleep.
My nerves are at a breaking point and now I have diarrhea. Great
. My thoughts go in circle. I no longer know what to do.
I know now in which city Nathaniel is hiding. He called me from a new number; I should send money (100 euro) to a M. O. in Obuasi in the Ashanti region. Then he could come back to Accra. I told him that I could not send him 100 €, only 50. I told him on my way to the beer garden that I would go to the bank and get the money and send it to him. I have the money now with me, but I don't know what to do. I have written an email to Ms. H. asking her how I should proceed. Nathaniel should not know that I am behind all this. But I did not get a reply from her. And so far, nothing has come from Ghana. They wanted to have my cell phone number, but nobody is calling. Ms. H. is now on vacation for 3 weeks. Her colleague is in charge of my case. I put her on CC in my email, but received no response. Well, they also have the weekend off. But I don't know what to do? Today, on the phone with Nathaniel, I started crying. He meant that I should not cry and that he loves me. I also said that I love him, but I don't, or do I? I don't know, but I have a bad feeling that this will end in a disaster. Why did he have to get away? Should I send an E-Mail to the police in Ghana? I would like to know at least what they are doing, if they pursue Nathaniel. He is online in any case, he is invisible.
But on the other hand, it is good that it turned out this way. I never knew I had so much acting skills and how well I have adapted to the situation. Nathaniel thinks that I have nothing to do with the whole thing, he trusts me (I hope).
Ms. H. has sent me an email, thank God (before midnight). I should not get hasty. If I send this money, it would be definitely gone. Where she's right of course. I should wait until Monday. The journalists and the police will evaluate the conversation with the hidden camera. And maybe UPS might want to make a second money transfer. But I don't think that Nathaniel will go for that. He's too smart. That doesn't work. Well, I could ask him, but I have my doubts. In any case, I'm sick now for Nathaniel. Lying in bed with diarrhea, which is not really a lie. I could tell him that I have the money, and as soon as I would feel better I could send him the money. But today on the phone, I have been really devastated. And depending on the results on Monday, I will send him the 50 €! He has to trust me, he must trust me!
Just too bad that I have to work again on Monday. I can't do anything then, can only check my E-mails. But for Nathaniel I'm sick, at least until Monday.
Oh Dear God, let me and my son get out of this unharmed. I want to have a normal life again. This man is ruining me, emotionally and financially. He's a criminal, a liar, a scammer. I thought about this afternoon at the beer garden, I want to have a loving partner at my side, with whom I can have a normal life, with whom I can enjoy the beautiful things in life together. But for this I have to get rid of Nathaniel, he has to get out of my life. Oh man, at first it was Phillip M., then Travis and now Nathaniel! This can't be true, everything seems so unreal! And Nathaniel is constantly invisible today with his E-mail account. This dumbass! Writing with his accomplices in Accra and probably laughing at me. Although, I don't think so now. Can someone act so perfectly well with a stranger? And the way he looked at me on webcam? And the way he cried to me on the phone? And telling me all the time how much he loves me? Well, that's his job as a scammer
. He's got probably many years of experience!
Well, in any case I give him a few exciting days, who knows, maybe even a few very boring weeks or years in prison. I'm just sorry for his poor son. But he probably lives with his mother anyway. But perhaps Nathaniel is indeed married? How will I know whether he told me the truth that his girlfriend and mother of his son meets with other men and that they are separated?
But except for my friend R. I will not tell anybody about this whole story. R. is the only one who knows everything. I will not further involve any other friends. When some of them will see my report on television, I must probably give some explanations to them anyway. But I will wait if somebody will in fact ask me. Now I'm going to bed, it’s already after 1: 00 a.m. and I have to get up at 9:00 a.m. the latest. After the mail from Ms. H. I calmed down a bit and I am feeling slightly better.